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Met up for tea and cake (cheesecake for me) at Cour St Emilion on Sunday with a friend of a friend whom I had met several times.  I don’t know him REAL well but we had always gotten along great and have had many interesting conversations. So, we had a great time even though he did go on and on about the Bush administration. Hey, I’m from NY so it’s not like we were on opposing sides but it certainly did make for some lively conversations !

So, here we are chatting away and basically just having a grand ol’ time. Towards the end of the evening, he drops me off on his scooter (probably not as exciting as a motorcycle, Betty but still cool nonetheless !) and as we’re standing around saying goodbye, he pulls the "I’ve got something to tell you". Uh oh, I start thinking… but then here’s the interesting part : he starts by telling me how much he appreciates me (that’s a French thing, they apparently like to say that word a lot) but how he’s recently started talking to an ex of his… What was my reaction ? "That’s great !" I exclaimed and then we both looked at each other surprised. I think he because of my reaction and I because I just then realized that uh oh, maybe this was supposed to be a date or something !?!?

How come I’m always the last one to find that out ??

But was it really one !?! Yeah, you can imagine my confusion now…  I mean, I really like the guy and I do find him attractive but even so, in my mind, this was just and only a hangout…

Is this a case of once naive, always naive !?!

Anyhow, I sent him an email yesterday telling him that I had a great time but apologized (even though I don’t think one was needed) for my reaction as he had truly caught me by surprise. Basically told him that I ALSO appreciate him a lot =o) (hey, two can play that game) and that I wish him the best of luck with his girl. Told him that I hope it won’t mean the end of our friendship as it has really just begun.

I guess we’ll see what life has in store for us…

…but…..  MEN !

No… not in NYC, on the blog… duh !

Here’s a scary thought, come May it will be 1 year since I would have moved back to Paris !! Since when did I fall into a time warp zone where every breathing second and minute has been accelerated ?!?

Cheery thought, come May it will be 4 months since I would have started working at RIM BlackBerry (yes, THE RIM BlackBerry that just paid out gazillion $ to settle NTP lawsuit).

So, how have I been, what have I been up to ? Does anyone even care ?

Let’s see, I came here in May 2005, had fun for like 4 months and travelled around and then I checked my bank account and thought uh oh ! maybe I should start looking for a job un de ces 4 (one of these days)…

Started looking around in October, had two job offers by December, which allowed me to fly back home for 2 1/2 weeks for the holidays even though I was pretty broke by then.

So, now I’m working at an int’l company in Paris which is great I tell ya… but here’s a funny thing that I’ve noticed. When I get up in the morning, my thoughts are in English but by the time I get off work, I think in French. Now, come see me after a few drinks and unless you’re fluent in both languages, you probably won’t understand me much. Funny thing this gray mushy matter of ours .

It seems like a lot of people I know back home are going through a "restless, there’s gotta be more to life than this" phase. As someone who went through it 2 years ago and moved to Paris as a result of it in order to feel alive again, well, I’m sorry but I don’t have the answer for you. I don’t even know if what I did is a good thing. After all, if there are going to be repercussions, I won’t know until later on, right ? But one thing I do know is that I don’t have that feeling anymore. I’m not saying it was a piece of cake my experience here but right now, I am exactly where I want to be. And you know what, that’s what’s great about adulthood ! Take yourself wherever you want to be… because you can !

I didn’t mean for this to turn into a sermon because after all, it could come back to bite me in the arse, right ? Say, I’m having so much fun but yet I’m not getting any younger and before I know it, the boat would have sailed on… well, all I gotta say to that, is certs, I don’t got Cameron Diaz’s salary but… she seems to be doing fine holding on to her youth.

Oh, and I’m now open to the idea of dating : hot French single guys need apply only… so, if you know of any, send them my way !  =o)  But knowing how difficult I am, you may have to stay tuned for a really long time before you hear anything exciting happening on that front. LOL

So, here’s to a great year 2006 !

Wish you all LOADS of HAPPINESS !

And hope to be back more often for more blog writings !

Cadbury girl (I’ll explain that one next time)